Today is Mother’s Day

Today is Mother’s Day. A day filled with joy, love, happiness, laughter. A day of celebration. But not for you, today is a day of pain. Today is a day of sadness. While others smile, your heart is aching. While mother’s hold new babies. You heart is breaking. You are longing for chubby fingers and toes. You long for snuggles and arms that are full. Instead, you feel the emptiness. You feel unseen. You feel pain.

Today is Mother’s Day. A day filled with joy, love, happiness, laughter. A day of celebration. But not for you, today is a day of sadness. Your mom is gone. You heart has a hole. An empty space. The grave is your meeting place. Pictures, movies, and memories are all that are left. You miss her, want her near. You long for one more day together. One more hug, one more kiss, one more “I love you.” But there won’t be any. You pain feels too great to bear. The grief overwhelms.

Today is Mother’s Day. A day filled with joy, love, happiness, laughter. A day of celebration. But not for you, today is a day of suffering. You see mothers and children. You see their laughter, you see their love. But your heart can’t understand. Your mother wasn’t there. You were abandoned. You didn’t get to know. You didn’t get to see. There are no memories. Their is no longing for better days and better times. There is just the unknown, the abandon, the rejection.

Today is Mother’s Day. A day filled with joy, love, happiness, laughter. A day of celebration. But not for you, today is a day of sorrow. Your memories are filled with hurt and physical pain. There was yelling, hitting, fear. Your childhood was no childhood. There was no one there for you. The ones that were supposed to love you, protect you. They hurt you. They didn’t see your worth. You grew up too soon. Your suffering and pain were too great.

Today is Mother’s Day. A day filled with joy, love, happiness, laughter. A day of celebration. But not for you, today is a day of aching. While others celebrate their love with family, you feel lost. Yours is a day you wish could pass without incident. You do not want to want to go to church. You don’t want to put on a fake smile. You don’t want to pretend that this day is wonderful. You want to escape.

Know that you are seen. Your are known. Your story matters. You are not alone in your pain. We stand strong together, as a group of women. We are united in stories. You have value, you are to be celebratedfor who you are today. You are not defined by your history or circumstances. You are loved.

To You on Mother’s Day

You carried me,

combed my hair,

snuggled in when days were hard,

You wiped my tears and spoke kind words,

carried me when I was too weak to stand,

You stayed up late,

clothed me in love,

held my hand,

sang me songs,

You tucked me in,

You held me tight,

made my lunches,

educated me,

You walked with me through dark days,

You bought my prom dress

planned my wedding,

gave me courage when I had none,

You held my babies,

wiped away my tears,

You were there for me when others won’t,

You sacrificed yourself, devoted your life to mine,

You grew me, raised me, set me free to fly,

You were and are my biggest fan and best friend,
You gave me all you had,

You are mine

This Mother’s Day, mom, I want you to know how much I appreciate you. You have given me all of you. You have been my rock and my best friend. You are my constant. I love you more than words can express. This day and all days, I love you.

Love,
Your Daughter